Hello, I need to talk to someone right now and no-one I trust is available, so I'm posting here.

As some of you may remember, I split up with my former partner (and experienced some rather public fallout) earlier in the year. We had been together for a fairly substantial amount of time and had an intense relationship. I loved him dearly, more than I can describe, and I genuinely believe - even with hindsight - that he was the best thing that ever happened to me.

It's now almost six months later and I haven't got over him. I have good patches and bad patches, but generally, I'm in the depths of despair. After attempting - and failing - to move on as friends, my ex cut all contact with me and I feel like a part of my heart has been wrenched out. I haven't healed, partly because I haven't wanted to - I long to return to what we had and not having it is tearing me apart. I've sought counselling and it hasn't helped, and I feel I'm now on the brink of an abyss.

I've tried to "snap out of it," and it's failed. I've sought help, and it's failed. My parents are supportive but I think they don't understand the gravity of the situation - they often comment on how they "miss" my ex, and miss seeing us together, and it only compounds my sadness. I feel at a total loss, unwanted and unloved If anyone can offer any kind of help whatsoever then please, it's gratefully received.

I just want to go back to how my life used to be

There are various different types of counselling so saying it hasn't helped merely means the particular one you tried wasn't right for you.

Was this private counselling or a GP referral?

I'd explore other counselling options before you dismiss the whole field because it does sound as though that's still your best chance.

It sounds as though you are in a state of depression so are you taking any form of anti-depressants or do they not help?

Above all, you must realise that people care about you more than you realise so please don't do anything you might regret.

Stay strong.

I received counselling through my university but it ended because I reached the end of my 6 session block and term ended at roughly the same time. I tried coping myself with various degrees of success through summer but it hasn't helped overall.

I do have a history of depression and this is certainly that kind of unbearable and incessant sadness, but it's noticably different in that when I think of my partner, and happy memories we shared, I feel a kind of warmth and I'm temporarily alright. It's got me through the summer. I've never had anything in previous bouts of depression which has been able to pull me out of it like that. Just the thought of this guy gives me hope.

I plan to resume counselling again soon now that term has started. Thanks by the way. Just typing out all this has helped clear my mind a bit; I was having an especially hard time of it tonight.

I have no advise as I am an emotional wreck more often than not. I can only offer one of these...
I hope its better soon.

I dont have a any answers but I do feel for you very very much much love

I don't really know what to say.
I feel deep sympathy for you, and i hope you come out of your depression and enjoy life again soon.

Maybe try doing little things that make you happy and gradually build upon it.
Make sure you do something every day, to keep your mind occupied, shopping. Friends are really important in times like these.
and you always have a friend here.
Keep a diary, let your emotions out on a page and then close it.