ok, i do apologies in advance for the essay and potential spelling issues
so about january, i was with a guy for like a week, stupid i know, an not the point, but through him i met a new guy who happens to be my ex's ex,(complication 1). anyways since we started speaking me and this second guy get on like a house on fire, always have a laugh, loads of chemistry an similar interests, people that meet us for the 1st time are always commenting on if we are together already the chemistry is that clear to see, anyways for months nothin happened, we jus pottered along flirting as you do, but having a good time an being great mates, so all good so far
then in april things finally happened in the bedroom, for want of a better phrase, had a great night an when you sleep with mates it can be awkward, but there was none if that either during or after, it just felt as if it had been building up to this point an it just fell into place, that was until the next day when his/my ex called him, they spilt up roughly a year ago, but will not leave each other alone, this guy told our mutual ex that things had happened an he went through the roof at second guy, putting him in a foul mood all day, i dropped him off to the pub to see the "ex" an went for a long drive, however whilst i was out, i got a text from the ex saying did i have fun with his boyfriend last night, at which point i had only just then found out they had got back together about 2 weeks prior in an "open relationship", as you can imagine, that utterly killed me as i had had strong feelings for this guy for ages an felt gutted not to have been told.
over the last few months they have argued continuously, slept around on the ex's behalf there, an basically wanted to kill each, this has upset me cause the guy i accidentally fell in love with was constantly depressed over it, as it turns out they spilt up a few weeks ago, an this is where it gets confusing, so please bear with me.
after they split up, i was there for this guy, a shoulder to cry on, nothin happened, much as i wanted it to, but he said to me that for the time being he can't get with me as i know his ex and he just wanted complete detachment from him, fair enough i understand that, but within 4 days of breaking up, he had gone away with a younger guy who doesn't know said ex, they got together in that 4 days, an i won't lie it upset me, but it also upset another person who said guy had also told he liked, but again knew the ex so couldn't go there for detachment stakes, anyway again this new guy and him lasted a week if that, because the guy i like was still shagging his on again off again ex, anyways last night we went for a drink an we got talking an i got drunk an asked why i wasn't good enough, i have a car, a job, a stable future and his response was i am 99% perfect, but small niggles get to him, they are the fact i don't have a perfect chest, not fat or anything, but no definition, and that my bottom lip is always dry, which is the fault of lack of water, i hardly ever drink it, now i am not sure whether or not to be insulted at that, or thankful that he has told me the truth, more so as they are both things i can work on, but the simple question is, should i even bother, am i fighting a losing battle, when i think he wants to get back with the ex that lasted a week instead :/
oh and another complication, the 2nd guy he upset by saying he liked him, is 16, however we have been there for each other, like a shoulder to cry on, mutual support, things like that, now this 16 year has told me he really quite likes me, one problem, i am 25, surely thats to great a risk to take? would you agree
This post has been edited by 87dizzyfu*ker87: Jul 20 2012, 06:13