Hello, I need to talk to someone right now and no-one I trust is available, so I'm posting here.
As some of you may remember, I split up with my former partner (and experienced some rather public fallout) earlier in the year. We had been together for a fairly substantial amount of time and had an intense relationship. I loved him dearly, more than I can describe, and I genuinely believe - even with hindsight - that he was the best thing that ever happened to me.
It's now almost six months later and I haven't got over him. I have good patches and bad patches, but generally, I'm in the depths of despair. After attempting - and failing - to move on as friends, my ex cut all contact with me and I feel like a part of my heart has been wrenched out. I haven't healed, partly because I haven't wanted to - I long to return to what we had and not having it is tearing me apart. I've sought counselling and it hasn't helped, and I feel I'm now on the brink of an abyss.
I've tried to "snap out of it," and it's failed. I've sought help, and it's failed. My parents are supportive but I think they don't understand the gravity of the situation - they often comment on how they "miss" my ex, and miss seeing us together, and it only compounds my sadness. I feel at a total loss, unwanted and unloved If anyone can offer any kind of help whatsoever then please, it's gratefully received.
I just want to go back to how my life used to be