I started a new weekend job about 2 months ago as a till monkey while I'm at college and I'm really starting to fall for my supervisor :/ He was the one who till trained me and walk me round the shop and all the usual formalities etc and in a very uptight shop he's really laid back a good laugh. I'm 16 (nearly 17) and I've (well, it feels like) fallen for straight guys before and I can deal with that. Get on with it, move on. And I know this sounds like an "I wish he was gay" topic but in a strange way this is what is driving me mad: he IS gay.
A few weeks after I'd started I was speaking about him to another cashier there and she winked at me and said "you and [him] are getting on well aren't you?" and I panicked a bit in case she'd somehow worked I like him but she said "oh, I thought you knew he was gay". It sounded too good to be true because he's very straight acting but she said he'd split with his boyfriend of 2 years during the summer and that he seemed a bit more perky around me than usual? I mentioned what she'd said to him later on (well apart from the last bit) and he just told me that he was, said he was comfortable with it, that everyone there knew but that he didn't really see a reason to mention it. And since then my mind's gone into overdrive about whether he might like me back or not.
He works every other weekend so I do see him fairly often and when I asked him if he fancied going out one night he showed some interest but he's 20 and at uni, so is it likely he won't be interested in a college kid? :/ I got his MSN address and his number and I do speak to him most days now and there's a lot of winking and that sort of thing on MSN. He always seems happy to talk to me and on Saturday night at about midnight my parents had another big argument and I texted him asking if he was still awake and in the end he rang me to see if I was okay and we were on the phone until 3am. And he still looked really hot and energetic in work 6 hours later! Some people just have it don't they
And yesterday.. well I dunno what made me do it but when he was on a till next to me and I needed to get past him I put my hands on his hips and pushed him to the side that way. Sounds a bit weird I know (okay so it WAS weird
) but I kinda wanted to see his reaction to try and gauge whether he likes me or not and he grinned at me but then randomly walked off? Then later I sort of caught his eye while he was walking past and he definitely looked back and held my gaze and smiled at me.
I think the signs are there but I've been made to look a fool in this sort of situation before. I know obviously nobody can tell me for definite apart from him but this is more of a getting it off my chest post. Does anyone think this might be worth persuing? I'm just worried if I ask him more he'll twig how much I like him and work might become really awkward? Does that make sense?
Thanks guys x